My Northern Home

I often here that I'm a cool person, because I'm always so happy and energetic That it is nice to read my happy writings. That it is nice to be around me, because I have good things happening to me. I appreciate this feedback and I'm truly happy, if I can share joy and happiness to people around me. If they can get energy from me and my being. But it is not the whole truth. There is also bad, sad and stressful moments in my life. I don't like to talk about them, as I don't want to burden people around me. I don't want to hear them saying again "What is wrong with you, where is the Pirita who is always so happy?" It makes me feel even more bad. It takes away the space for me to feel my feelings. It lays expectations on me, which I can not fulfill in that moment. Why do I then write about this now? Not because I want to. But because I feel it is important. Because I want to say out loud, what happened in December. W...

Summer has come without noticing. Next weekend is the midsummer festival and we have reached the highest point of the northern summer. After this the day starts to grow shorter and shorter. This was some how shocking for me to realize. I think I have been living in some kind of never ending spring phase in my life. When did all the snow melt away? When did the night frost stop coming? When did the tree leafs grow in their full size? I'm now convinced, that I have been definitely too focused in all the wrong things in life. If you can't notice time passing by and seasons changing, it is definitely time to stop. Stop running and take a deep breathe. After all I moved here in Lapland so I could enjoy all the four seasons. Where the life phase is slower. To have stress-free life. And yet I'm carrying the stress with me. I know, I'm good at being concerned and stress about things. But I truly hope I could learn to be more relaxed. More trustful towards life an...